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just thoughts

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i really miss this place sometimes. i haven't been active at all recently and my life has gotten so busy i don't really have the time, but i recently designed a tattoo i want to get and realized how much i miss doing digital art almost every night, and i miss the communities here.


i used to call deviantart my home, and it really was. i miss actively working on my adoptables groups, and being in plenty of others where i had so many friends. it seems we all stopped focusing on them but i'll never stop loving them and the great community i had here.


dunno where i'm going with this, maybe i just miss my friends. i don't really talk to anyone anymore, so i guess i could be lonely, but i also just miss bonding over the adoptable communities and creating lore and stories and worlds for our characters. if i find time i guess i'd love to be more active again.

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I'm aware it's probably not smart to post vent journals and spill your guts to everyone online except for on anonymous forums, but I really need to get some stuff out because I'm just not doing well right now. If you're not in for long rants don't bother reading, yadda yadda, you know, basic stuff.

:star:TRIGGER WARNINGS:star: Topics of depression, anxiety, gender dysphoria, and suicide. If I missed tagging anything I'm sorry.

Also, apologies if everything seems disorganized and thrown around, my thoughts are disorganized and thrown around right now, as you could probably imagine.

I don’t know how to condense this down but here’s the run down.

I’m 25, transgender female to male, and my life is a wreck.

I’ve had depression and anxiety since my early teen years and didn’t come out about being trans until I was 20 and I confided in one person I thought was a trustworthy friend who blew it up on the internet and told everyone I was an attention whore. I hadn’t wanted anyone to know at that point but he made sure everyone did.

My parents are extremely unsupportive and I've lived with them all my life. Because of how severe the depression and anxiety and gender dysphoria are I was in therapy but also have never been able to hold a job.

I barely graduated high school, dropped out of college and then tried again and failed out, and since then I’ve never held a job longer than a few months. This is a combination of a lack of motivation or will to even get out of bed, anxiety keeping me terrified of talking to or working with anybody, and not being able to stand for long without being in extreme pain, because I have pain all over my body, especially in my neck and back, but my parents never believed in chiropractors and their work so I never got to figure that out or get help for it. The combination of actual physical pain and mental illness also had me calling in and cancelling work a lot because I was “sick.” And I was sick, just not in the way they thought.

My parents are actually verbally and emotionally abusive, especially because my mother is one of those control freak helicopter parents who has to be right about everything and can see no faults in herself. She’s told me to my face before that even if I did everything perfectly and was exactly what she wanted of me, it still wouldn’t be enough for her.

About a month ago I finally got a way out. My girlfriend and her family told me they had a place for me so when things got even worse between me and my parents I packed up my whole life and high tailed it out of there. I’ve been living in Pennsylvania ever since, after a ten hour drive up the coast from Georgia.

They wanted me to have a place to heal but that’s honestly not happening. I have 20 dollars left and I know even if I get a job it won’t last because I can’t even get myself out of bed most of the time.

I know that it’s my depression and anxiety and I know how bad it really is but I literally cannot function in society and it’s worse now than it’s ever been. My parents are abusive but at home I knew I was financially taken care of so if I couldn’t work it may have been verbally thrown in my face that I was useless but I still wasn’t struggling to survive.

At home in Georgia I have a basset hound named Rolo, and I couldn’t take him with me because not only is he under my mother's name but he is a cat chaser and the house I’m in now has five cats. The move would have stressed him out way too much and he’s on certain food I wouldn’t be able to afford to get him here and my mom covers his vet bills which I never could. But despite all that Rolo is my dog, not hers. Rolo literally chose me the day we met him, he climbed onto my back and started licking my ear and I knew he was mine. I was the one to always walk him and feed him and spend all my time with him, he slept with me at night, we spent all our time together. He is bonded to me, and I to him. And he’s all I can think about now that he’s gone.

My mom has told me on the phone that since I left he has been more stressed than ever and he’s just generally depressed without me, and I know what she’s saying is true but I also have been told by someone else that this is another form of manipulation from my abusive mother and honestly they’re probably right. My point is I love the animals here but I keep comparing them to my dog and I cry over him a lot and just stare at his over 200 pictures on my phone and I’m a wreck with him but even worse without him.

I’m not motivated to keep a job and honestly all I want to do is sleep my life away and right now that’s kind of what I’m doing. If I’m not driving someone to work or picking them up I’m either forcing myself to draw every day for the inktober challenge or I’m asleep. I barely eat, I’m not looking for jobs because I feel I have no reason to because it wouldn’t last, I haven’t showered in days because why bother if all I’m gonna do is sleep anyway, and with 20 bucks left to my name it feels like it would be the perfect time to just die.

I feel absolutely worthless to everyone around me. I didn’t just come here to heal but to help my girlfriend’s great grandfather who is 97 years old. He was in the hospital when I got here and I’m a certified nursing assistant because my mom forced me to take classes and made sure I always showed up, not because I was motivated or wanted to. When pap got out of the hospital a few days after I moved here I was told he was a lot worse than they thought he was going to be. Now he’s been diagnosed with Alzheimer’s and he needs more help than I can provide him, so he has nurses and therapists coming in every day to shower him and exercise with him and my girlfriend's dad is the only one who is strong enough to lift him.

So basically I came here thinking at least I’d be somewhat useful but I’m not at all because I’m not doing anything at all. I thought I’d be able to help and since I can’t I just sleep all the time instead.

I don’t feel like I belong here or like I’m welcome because I’m useless and can’t do anything and can't settle in properly, either. At least at home I was helping around the house every day and taking care of my dog and doing things to help my mom since she’s older and has been sick for a long time and she just can’t do a lot of things anymore. I was able to run errands for her and do chores she couldn’t do cause she can’t bend over and she can’t reach a lot of things and she falls a lot and I was always there to help. Now that I’m here in PA I’m not helping anyone.

September 2016 I tried to kill myself and ended up in a behavioral health center on lockdown for a week because of it. The place was a worse hell than you can ever imagine, there’s no sympathy or true understanding and they don’t actually care if you feel better, you just have to bullshit and act like it or you’ll never leave and they’ll rake up all your money.

I’m at a point where I would rather kill myself than go back to a place like that. I’m never going to one of those places again after all I went through. I developed PTSD because of that place.

Basically I just don’t know what to do. I feel so worthless I just want to die and I know I can’t function in society. I know it’s the depression and anxiety but my brain still constantly screams at me that I’m just a lazy, irresponsible slug who will never amount to anything. All I want is my dog back and if I go home I’m going back to an unhealthy and abusive environment but at least I’ll have my dog. That said the trip costs 300-400 dollars with gas and food and a motel overnight so you don’t have to drive ten hours straight, so even if I wanted to go home to that environment I can’t afford it and don’t know that I ever will with my inability to function and hold a job. Going home also means I’m showing my parents I really am useless and will never be able to support myself.

I uprooted my whole life just to want to go back home despite all my parents have put me through, and honestly the only answer I can see to get out of this anymore is to kill myself. Everyone always says it’ll get better but it’s been 13 years and everything has only gotten worse and not better over the years.

I don’t want to be here and I don’t want to be home in Georgia. I want to be alone in a little house with my dog Rolo where we don’t have to worry about how life will perceive us and we can sleep and take walks and spend all our time together. I want a reality I can’t have because everyone has to work in our society or we are seen as irresponsible and lazy and useless, and because if you don’t work and function under a world run by money, you won’t have that money to survive at all. And as it is I can’t work and function, so how can I survive, and why is it even imperative that I do? Why try or bother?

I’m a reclusive, terrified, tired boy who can’t see an end to the hell he's in. I can’t even motivate myself to do my art enough to try and sell it.

I dunno. I really just don’t know at this point.

All I can really say is.. help. :/ But if I can’t even help myself why would anyone else want to help me?

A note to all of this, I have an older sister who lives in Tennessee and that’s where my dad will retire to at the end of next year. My parents have a house up there and they go up there every other weekend. My sister is married and had her first child last November so visiting their granddaughter is really important to my parents. My sister has a seemingly perfect life with a great husband and a perfect baby and her dog and her goats and their perfect jobs and my parents have always been so focused on her successes that they want me to be perfect and just like my sister and I’m not and can’t live up to those expectations so I’m just a disappointment.

I was adopted and my birth mother suggested I go live with my sister until I can support myself but again I don’t think I’ll ever be able to function properly, and on top of that my sister is constantly busy and stressed juggling her job and her baby, and even if I could help and watch the baby in the day so my sister could get some work done, when she wants her mom she wants her mom and no one else. That said my sister also told me if I could get officially diagnosed with gender dysphoria she would support me and then when I told her I was, she changed the subject to how I was on my parents’ insurance money and she hasn’t shown any outward support at all. I’m still her baby’s aunt instead of her uncle and when I did try to open up about the abuse our parents put me through the text she responded with was a very generic “sorry everything is so rough right now.” Like no??? Not right now, I just told you what’s been going on for years and you can’t give me any back up at all? At best I don’t think my sister understands me, at worst I’d say our relationship is strained. Even if she wasn’t so constantly busy I wouldn’t want to ask to stay with her for any period of time.

And how could she understand me? She's never had the depression and anxiety, she's a social butterfly, she's always been extremely motivated and studied hard and has had a perfect GPA all her life and is well-liked by everyone around her, she has huge social networks of people who would bend over backwards to help her, and she couldn't possibly understand what it's like to lack the motivation, to be terrified of people, to have barely any friends to understand you at all. Even if she were to honestly try, she would never really understand me, because we live two totally different lives. On the opposite end, I can't understand how she motivates herself so easily, how talking to so many people daily doesn't terrify her. People touching me without me knowing it's about to happen makes me flinch away from them, I don't initiate conversation often even with those I'm close to and I don't ever really initiate physical contact. I'm coming to find I think I might be paranoid as well, with the way I'm constantly jumpy or panicked inwardly in some way, and with how much I look over my shoulders and wasn't honestly aware of it until it was pointed out to me. There's no way my sister and I could ever truly understand each other, but I guess I at least wish she would try. I went out of my way to finally open up to her and I felt like I just got nothing in return. I used to think she and I were super close but I guess we're just not. :/ 

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RRA Tier Journal

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Current Tier Level: 6

RRA Chimeras and Companions

Tier 1

Qualifications: 
✧ Own a chimera

Ravens-Folklore: Ourah by Ragaki-Runeland

✧ Participate in an event, of any size

Pokedoptable Adventure Event

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Tier 2
Qualifications: 
✧ Own 3+ chimera’s

RRA Chimeras and Companions

✧ Participate in an event, of any size

Pokedoptable Adventure Event

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Tier 3
Qualifications: 
✧ Own 5+ chimera’s

RRA Chimeras and Companions

✧ Have 1 piece of fan art in our favourites

To New Heights

✧ Participate in 2 events, of any size

1. Pokedoptable Adventure Event


2.  Event: Birthday Breeding Raffle 01--CLOSED by Ragaki-Runeland

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Tier 4
Qualifications: 
✧ Own 8+ chimera’s

RRA Chimeras and Companions

✧ Have 3 pieces of fan art in our favourites

Petty Thief
To New Heights
Graveyard Carving

✧ Participate in a Large Event 

Pokedoptable Adventure Event

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Tier 5 

Qualifications: 
✧ Own 11+ chimera’s 

RRA Chimeras and Companions

--> One must be of a RARE rarity

Ravens-Folklore: Ipheya by Ragaki-Runeland

✧ Have 4 pieces of fan art in our favourites

Petty Thief 
To New Heights 
Graveyard Carving 
Spilled Punch | Nora's Quest #1

✧ Participate in a breeding season, and successfully breed an offspring


Ravens-Folklore: Rocket by Ragaki-Runeland +  Ravens-Folklore: Crystal by Ragaki-Runeland =  Ravens-Folklore: Naut by Ragaki-Runeland

✧ Participate in a raffle event, of any sort (*chimera adopt conditions do not count as a raffle event) 

Event: Birthday Breeding Raffle 01--CLOSED by Ragaki-Runeland


✧ Successfully complete a Quest 

Summer Fun by Ravens-Folklore got me  Ravens-Folklore: Pluto by Ragaki-Runeland


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Tier 6
Qualifications: 
✧ Own 13+ chimera's 

RRA Chimeras and Companions

--> One must be a mixbreed, 3 uncommon, 3 rare

Mixbreed:  Ravens-Folklore: Ourah by Ragaki-Runeland
Uncommon:  Ravens-Folklore: Monet by Ragaki-Runeland  Ravens-Folklore: Ansen by Ragaki-Runeland  Ravens-Folklore: Eoduun by Ragaki-Runeland
Rare:  Ravens-Folklore: Ipheya by Ragaki-Runeland  Ravens-Folklore: Firefly by Ragaki-Runeland  Ravens-Folklore: Keller by Ragaki-Runeland

--> Own a Chimera with a bonded Pettable 

Ravens-Folklore: Aoora by Ragaki-Runeland

✧ Have 6 pieces of fan art in our favourites

Petty Thief 
To New Heights 
Graveyard Carving 
Spilled Punch | Nora's Quest #1 
Log Entry One
Log Entry Two

✧ Participate in 3 Large Events, of any sort

Pokedoptable Adventure Event 
2015 Expedition to the Runeland Badlands
Event: Doki-ki Resort

✧ Participate in 4 small events, of any sort

September Event -- Closed
Wickerville Hollow - Shiranae Tributes -CLOSED comments.deviantart.com/1/5617…
Wickerville Hollow - 2016 - CLOSED comments.deviantart.com/1/6196…
Event: Birthday Breeding Raffle 01--CLOSED by Ragaki-Runeland

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Tier 7
Qualifications: 
✧ Own 15+ Chimera's 

RRA Chimeras and Companions

--> 1 chimera with custom markings, 3 mixbreeds, 3 feral species

Custom:  Ravens-Folklore: Ipheya by Ragaki-Runeland
:star:INCOMPLETE:star: Mixbreeds:  Ravens-Folklore: Ourah by Ragaki-Runeland Ravens-Folklore: Suonet by Ragaki-Runeland
Feral:  Ravens-Folklore: Olivia by Ragaki-Runeland  Ravens-Folklore: Vapor by Ragaki-Runeland Ravens-Folklore: Ansen by Ragaki-Runeland

--> Own 2 Chimera's with a bonded Pettable 

Ravens-Folklore: Aoora by Ragaki-Runeland  Ravens-Folklore: Keller by Ragaki-Runeland

✧ Have 10 pieces of fan art in our favourites

Petty Thief
To New Heights
Graveyard Carving 
Spilled Punch | Nora's Quest #1 
Log Entry One
Log Entry Two
Log Entry Three
Log Entry Four
Log Entry Five
Digging Away

:star:INCOMPLETE:star: ✧ Challenge [NPC] Bayne and win (* screenshot comment thread and upload to your scraps) 

:star:INCOMPLETE:star: ✧ Successfully complete 5 Quests

Summer Fun by Ravens-Folklore got me  Ravens-Folklore: Pluto by Ragaki-Runeland

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Tier 8
Qualifications: 
✧ Own 15+ Chimera's 

RRA Chimeras and Companions

--> Own 5 Chimera’s with custom markings

Ravens-Folklore: Rocket by Ragaki-Runeland  Ravens-Folklore: Naut by Ragaki-Runeland  Ravens-Folklore: Suonet by Ragaki-Runeland Ravens-Folklore: Rajasthani by Ragaki-Runeland Ravens-Folklore: Ourah by Ragaki-Runeland

--> Own a chimera that has only been owned by you, and is displaying one or more of the following: EXP, Ability, Personality Trait, Bred offspring

Ravens-Folklore: Arenal by Ragaki-Runeland has offspring  VulcanTheWulf: Kardle by Ragaki-Runeland and  Ravens-Folklore: Phoenix by Ragaki-Runeland

:star:INCOMPLETE:star: --> Own a chimera that has 2 or more abilities (not same chimera for point above)

✧ Have 12 pieces of fan art in our favourites

Petty Thief 
To New Heights 
Graveyard Carving 
Spilled Punch | Nora's Quest #1 
Log Entry One
Log Entry Two
Log Entry Three
Log Entry Four
Log Entry Five
Digging Away
Inktober 2017: Day One {Morning Tea} 
Inktober 2017: Day Two {Stitched Together}

✧ Participate in 5 small events


September Event -- Closed
Wickerville Hollow - Shiranae Tributes -CLOSED comments.deviantart.com/1/5617…
Wickerville Hollow - 2016 - CLOSED comments.deviantart.com/1/6196…
RRA: Dear Santa
Event: Birthday Breeding Raffle 01--CLOSED by Ragaki-Runeland

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Tier 9
Qualifications: 
✧ Own 15+ Chimera's 

RRA Chimeras and Companions

--> Own 5 Chimera’s with a mutation

Grave B036: Patrol by Ragaki-Runeland  Ravens-Folklore: July by Ragaki-Runeland  Ravens-Folklore: Phoenix by Ragaki-Runeland  Ravens-Folklore: Zeppelin by Ragaki-Runeland  Ravens-Folklore: Sable by Ragaki-Runeland

--> Own a "Pokemon" themed custom Chimera 

Ravens-Folklore: Arenal by Ragaki-Runeland

--> Own a chimera “family” (father, mother and child OR Parent and 2 children) 

Ravens-Folklore: Rocket by Ragaki-Runeland +  Ravens-Folklore: Crystal by Ragaki-Runeland =  Ravens-Folklore: Naut by Ragaki-Runeland

✧ Own a Companion 

Ravens-Folklore: Emmuna'Notteresk by Ragaki-Runeland

✧ Have 15 pieces of fan art in our favourites

Petty Thief 
To New Heights 
Graveyard Carving 
Spilled Punch | Nora's Quest #1 
Log Entry One
Log Entry Two
Log Entry Three
Log Entry Four
Log Entry Five
Digging Away
Inktober 2017: Day One {Morning Tea} 
Inktober 2017: Day Two {Stitched Together}
Inktober 2017: Day Three {Cauldron}
Inktober 2017: Day Four {Underwater}
Inktober 2017: Day Five {Long}

✧ Participate in 5 Large events, of any sort


Pokedoptable Adventure Event
2015 Expedition to the Runeland Badlands
Event: Doki-ki Resort
Event: Shisu Breeding Season - Final Board -closed
Runeland Poke-Bank -- CLOSED by Ragaki-Runeland comments.deviantart.com/1/5099… comments.deviantart.com/1/5099…

✧ Be a member for 1+ years

comments.deviantart.com/1/4460…

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Tier 10
Qualifications: 
✧ Own 20+ chimera’s

RRA Chimeras and Companions

--> Own a "design-seeds" event Chimera 

Ravens-Folklore: Ourah by Ragaki-Runeland

--> Own a chimera with more then 3 accessories (jewelry/plushies)

Ravens-Folklore: Pluto by Ragaki-Runeland

--> Capture a chimera at the Safari Zone (feral)

Ravens-Folklore: Vapor by Ragaki-Runeland

✧ Own 4 Companions 

Ravens-Folklore: Baegyoja by Ragaki-Runeland  Ravens-Folklore: Skellig by Ragaki-Runeland  Ravens-Folklore: Avarice by Ragaki-Runeland  Ravens-Folklore: Neera by Ragaki-Runeland

✧ Have 20 pieces of fan art in our favourites

Petty Thief 
To New Heights 
Graveyard Carving 
Spilled Punch | Nora's Quest #1 
Log Entry One
Log Entry Two
Log Entry Three
Log Entry Four
Log Entry Five
Aponivi
Digging Away
Inktober 2017: Day One {Morning Tea} 
Inktober 2017: Day Two {Stitched Together}
Inktober 2017: Day Three {Cauldron}
Inktober 2017: Day Four {Underwater}
Inktober 2017: Day Five {Long}
Inktober 2017: Day Six {Anchor} 
Inktober 2017: Day Seven {String} 
Inktober 2017: Day Eight {Pile Of Leaves} 
Inktober 2017: Day Nine {Scarf}

✧ Participate in a Tournament 

Event: 2014 Tournament Sign Up- CLOSED

:star:INCOMPLETE:star:✧ Complete a Dungeon Raid

I did complete DUNGEON: Forest Cave: CLOSED but it says it doesn't count

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Tier 11
Qualifications: 
✧ Own 30+ chimera’s

RRA Chimeras and Companions

:star:INCOMPLETE:star: --> Own 1 chimera from a cross agency breeding

--> Own a chimera from one of our Birthday events 

Ravens-Folklore: Cornish by Ragaki-Runeland

:star:INCOMPLETE:star: --> Own a chimera from one of our 'Spread the Love Festival' events 

--> Own a chimera from one of our 'Dawn of the Dead Festival' events 

Ravens-Folklore: Lantern by Ragaki-Runeland

:star:INCOMPLETE:star: --> Capture 4 chimeras at the Safari Zone (Hunting, Exploring, feral)

Ravens-Folklore: Olivia by Ragaki-Runeland  Ravens-Folklore: Vapor by Ragaki-Runeland Ravens-Folklore: Pearson by Ragaki-Runeland

:star:INCOMPLETE:star: --> Capture 4 chimeras at the Safari Zone (Dungeon Raid, feral)

Ravens-Folklore: Savitri by Ragaki-Runeland

✧ Own 4 Companions

Ravens-Folklore: Baegyoja by Ragaki-Runeland  Ravens-Folklore: Rio'Kuuri by Ragaki-Runeland Ravens-Folklore: Cocijo by Ragaki-Runeland  Ravens-Folklore: Metronome by Ragaki-Runeland   

:star:INCOMPLETE:star: --> Own a Companion that has an achievement 

--> Own a Companion that has 3+ items equipped 

Ravens-Folklore: Micah by Ragaki-Runeland

:star:INCOMPLETE:star: ✧ Successfully breed a Companion

✧ Belong to a Story line group {The Underground, RJG, etc} 

Iustitia Agency Badge by Ragaki-Runeland

:star:INCOMPLETE:star: --> Have 2 pieces of fan art of your groups 'leader/boss' in our favourites

✧ Participate in 10 Large Events

Will link get all links later.

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Tier 12
Qualifications: 
✧ Own 40+ chimera’s

RRA Chimeras and Companions

:star:INCOMPLETE:star: --> Own a chimera with the following natural stats: 100+ comments (not self/friend spam), 40+ fav’s, 500+ view’s 

:star:INCOMPLETE:star: --> Own a chimera with 3 bonded pettables

:star:INCOMPLETE:star: --> Own a chimera with 8 equipped items 

✧ Own 10+ Companions

Ravens-Folklore: Jetel by Ragaki-Runeland  Ravens-Folklore: Spruill by Ragaki-Runeland  Ravens-Folklore: Kynsi by Ragaki-Runeland Ravens-Folklore: Kipina by Ragaki-Runeland Ravens-Folklore: Oriina'Riiru by Ragaki-Runeland Ravens-Folklore: Daelie by Ragaki-Runeland Ravens-Folklore: Jingzhi by Ragaki-Runeland Ravens-Folklore: Iseult by Ragaki-Runeland Ravens-Folklore: Liukua by Ragaki-Runeland Ravens-Folklore: Wolfie by Ragaki-Runeland

--> Own a Companion with custom markings

Ravens-Folklore: Cider by Ragaki-Runeland

--> Own a Companion with custom accessories 

Ravens-Folklore: Cocijo by Ragaki-Runeland

:star:INCOMPLETE:star: --> Own a mated pair of Companions 

✧ Participate in 15 large Events

Will link later  

:star:INCOMPLETE:star: ✧ Participate in 20 Small Events

Will link later (17/20)

:star:INCOMPLETE:star: ✧ Be higher ranked in a Story line group {The Underground, RJG, etc} 

:star:INCOMPLETE:star: --> Have 5 pieces of fan art of your groups 'leader/boss' in our favourites
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So I had some resistance to post this journal for quite awhile, because I'm not sure what kind of response I'm going to get for it.

BUT.. I want to start offering my art for Foxfans.

I cannot offer anything else, I don't have money so I cannot afford to buy a Foxfan myself, and I've entered the DTA contests and those never seem to work out, but I have High Quality Artwork I'm willing to offer if anyone is interested.

I'm not in a lot of the adoptable communities for really popular species like Sushi Dogs or any of those, and that's kind of what people seem to look for in return for their Foxfans, so it's hard for me to post offers when I don't have the stuff they're looking for.

But I've always wanted my own Foxfan, and I would love to offer art or even design custom characters for anyone who would entertain my offer in hopes that I would at some point have my very own Foxfan.

I'll post examples of my artwork, though of course you can see the examples I'm giving and more in my gallery. C:

Winter Wonderland by Ravens-Folklore  To New Heights by Ravens-Folklore  The Soft Goodbye by Ravens-Folklore  Beer, Teeth, and Scars by Ravens-Folklore  Papa's Home by Ravens-Folklore  High on Spoons by Ravens-Folklore  Guarding Grace by Ravens-Folklore  Cloud Surfing by Ravens-Folklore  Battle Ready by Ravens-Folklore  Window Pains by Ravens-Folklore  Stalking by Ravens-Folklore  RRA: Dear Santa by Ravens-Folklore  Lazy Daze by Ravens-Folklore  Tafari Magoro by Ravens-Folklore  Summer Fun by Ravens-Folklore  Revontulet by Ravens-Folklore  Sleeping Beauty by Ravens-Folklore   Meadows of Heaven by Ravens-Folklore  Show and Tell by Ravens-Folklore

**I do own my own adoptable agency, IttyBittyCity, but my agency is much smaller and does not have the extremely popular species. I do love what species I have, and they are all food-based, so I can offer customs from there as well, but I'm not sure anyone is interested in these and it's perfectly fine if you're not!

Thank you for taking the time to consider my offer! I will entertain the offer of /any/ foxfan, and may ask questions about whether your foxfan has a set gender or name and if you'd prefer they keep the gender or name or if it's okay to change it. C:
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► Upon receiving the message, and deciding to leave for the resort, you had to pack a suitcase. What did you bring with you?

--*--

Knowing that I'll be staying at a very popular resort, I start to pack my suitcase full of essentials. First I pack all the clothes I'll need, anything from underwear and tank tops and shorts to jackets and pajamas and sweatpants, so that I know I'm prepared no matter what kind of weather there is. Of course to go with all the clothes I also pack a couple different types of shoes, sandals and sneakers, and my deodorant. I don't pack my boots since I'll be wearing them out. I also bring a few pairs of swim trunks because I'm dearly hoping there's a pool!

From there I pack other essentials, like toothbrush and toothpaste, hairbrush, shampoo and conditioner, just the main list of travel items everyone should take along. I also pack a flashlight with some extra batteries and a rope because who knows what kind of weird situations people could get in.

There are things I debate like matches and scissors but I don't want to be stopped anywhere and told I have a weapon, so I skip those.

I pack away my laptop, which comes on long trips with me everywhere I go, though I have my own laptop bag to keep it in so it stays separate from my suitcase. Along with my own leisurely items is a drawing book I can also use as a journal, and several pencils and pens in a small baggy tucked away for drawing and writing.

After this the only thing left to pack is plenty of water and snacks, and I do so with no hesitation. I love food too much to skip out on it.

I stuff my cash and card in my wallet and make sure I have my I.D. and phone on me, and walk out wearing a shirt, sweatpants, a light jacket, and my boots. My wallet hangs around my neck and my sunglasses rest up on my head, and as my laptop bag hangs over my shoulder, I wheel out my suitcase and hope I have everything I'm going to need. Some of my companions are in charge of my apartment while I'm gone, and I hope no one lets anything go to shit while I'm away. It's with hugs and goodbyes that I head out the door towards this so called "Doki-Doki Resort."

--*--

► Traveling can be long and boring. How did you arrive at the island? ( Sleep on a train? Play sudoku on a plane? Listen to music on an Akumu pulled carriage? )

--*--

I don't live anywhere close to the resort, so I take a taxi to the airport, knowing that plane will be the best way to get there. I am a seasoned traveler and am used to planes, so I arrive at the airport at least a few hours in advance so I can have time to get through security and down to my gate.

After all the checking in, the security, eating and waiting at the gate, listening to music on my phone, and finally, eventually being called to board the plane, I settle in and do what I do on any flight. I look at the tiny screen on the back of the seat in front of me and I play Bejeweled until I just can't take it any longer. It's a good thing I love Bejeweled and have a high tolerance for long flights, because it eats away at my time. I listen to music the whole flight, and try to rest and relax. I order apple juice when the flight attendants roll the carts by our seats, and eventually the flight comes to an end, and getting up to stretch feels reaaally nice.

I get off the plane and grab the train away from the terminal to baggage claim, pick up my suitcase, and head out of the airport, catching a bus that's going to the resort. I spend my time on the bus just looking out the window at the scenery.

--*--

► Upon arrival, you received a room key. Describe the resort and your room.

--*--

I am not surprised this resort is so popular just by the looks of it.

Beautiful, pearly white marble flooring, a chandelier in the lobby that shrieks "expensive," and everyone who works here looks so classy. There's beautiful lounging areas with white and red furniture around, plush, velvety couches, and even the area where the continental breakfast must be every morning looks extremely high class. A piano sits to one side, waiting for someone to play it. I'm not actually sure how I afforded to stay at such a place, but looking at the beautiful lobby around me, I feel more like I'm in a dream than a real hotel--excuse me, resort.

It actually takes a minute for me to remember that I actually won a trip to stay here and am not paying for it, and even then I have to wonder if this whole setup could /really/ be free. It's so beautiful and high-class I just can't imagine that this is all free.

Everything is lined in gold filigree, and I'm so mesmerized just by the lobby it takes me a moment to realize I'm supposed to go to my room to drop my luggage.

When I do get to my room though, it's just as nice. A white headboard and bedskirt to go with golden pillows and comforter, beautifully hanging golden chandeliers, and soft, warm yellow walls lined in white borders. The wooden bedside tables are a dark rosewood which look to have been hand-carved before being stained. They have black and gold lamps on them, and there's a television in front of the bed that's a nice high definition flat-screen. Even the bathroom has nicer towels than the small, thin towels you get at most hotels, a beautiful marble counter top and the same pearly marble flooring that was in the lobby.

There's a small table with a chair in the room for working on a laptop like mine, or just for decoration maybe, I'm not sure, and there's a mini fridge and microwave and coffee pot all set up in an area towards the door, tucked away neatly so as not to disturb the aura of such a beautiful room.

I'm not sure if I feel like I deserve to be here.

--*--

► In your room, you find a brochure with various events going on around the island. What event(s) are you most excited for?

--*--

As I'm looking at the brochure I found on my bed, I can't help but smile at a few of the happenings around the island. It looks like there's a surfing class of some sort for those of us who never learned how, and since I just adore swimming I can't help but want to learn immediately. And of course I'm sure there's a beach gift shop nearby somewhere where I can get one of those cool spray-on t-shirts that I used to get all the time as a kid.

There's an area of the island that seems more like a jungle listed in the brochure for canopy zip-lining,  and more than anything else in the brochure I'm interested in doing that. I've zip-lined only once before in my life and never on a vacation, it had just been a day out, but I've always wanted to zip-line high up in the canopies of a jungle. I'm so fixated on this and this alone that I actually forget the rest of the brochure exists, and I make a note that I have got to ask the hotel staff downstairs about signing up for the canopy zip-lining.

I do wonder though... I don't see it in the brochure, but I have to wonder if there's any sort of dance classes you can take on this island. I'm not sure why I want to do this specifically on this trip, but I can't help but think a dance class at night on the beach or something would be a lot of fun. It's another thing I'll have to ask about when I go to the lobby later.

--*--
 
► In your room, you find coupons for a cafe in the resort. Somewhat hungry, you decide to take a look. What kind of food does the cafe offer?

--*--

As I'm sitting on my bed, I pick up the coupons, a little bit nervous. With such a fancy hotel I'm expecting everything on their menu to be super pricey, but somehow I afforded to stay here so maybe it won't be that bad? At least that's what I'm hoping.

Taking a look at the coupons, I end up taking in a sigh of relief. They do offer more fancy foods and pricier things that I overlook, but they also offer more simple selections like sandwiches and soups and bagels and pastries. Sandwiches even come with chips, it looks like! Chips!

My stomach growls at the thought of a delicious sandwich or some soup right about now, and I decide it's time that I definitely go and grab a bite to eat.

--*--

► While walking around the resort, you find many posters with 
this symbol on them. Apparently, some 'shady' individuals have been spotted near by. Should you be worried?

--*--

After grabbing some food from the cafe, which was absolutely delicious, I must say, I decide to wander around the resort for awhile. I'm so fascinated with everything I see, with the beautiful pool outside, the tiki torches starting to light up for the night, that I barely notice the posters at first. It's as I'm walking a particularly long hallway that I start to see them. They're everywhere, and I hadn't even glanced at them before.

Blinking, I step towards the wall and take a close look at the poster. As a member of The Runeland Judgment Group, I furrow my eyebrows seeing my group's symbol tacked up everywhere. It's only when I read the words under our symbol that I understand.

It seems like maybe other people in this hotel aren't just members of the Judgment Group, or maybe there's some sort of foul play going on somewhere on the island. I wouldn't say I'm scared, but it does make me a little wary.

From here on out, I make a note to keep aware of my surroundings and everything happening in the resort and wherever I go. If I spot anything suspicious I'll be sure to tell someone, and I make another small note to lock my door to my room and keep my curtains to my windows shut at night for safety.  I don't want anyone stealing my things, or worse, trying to hurt me for some reason.

My nerves are going to keep me aware and on the lookout this whole trip, I'm afraid, but I won't be deterred from having fun on this vacation! 

--*--

► On the way back to your room, you notice that the resorts front desk has a bowl on it, full of small, cute shaped candies, with a sign that says 'help yourself!'. How many do you take?

--*--

While heading back to my room, I have to pass by the front desk, and I notice the bowl of candies sitting there and wonder if I just didn't notice them before when I was so awed by the resort itself. I blink at the receptionist(is she a receptionist? what title do you give these people?) at the front desk, and step up to look at the bowl. I notice all the cute colors and shapes of the candy, and originally I just take one, happily staring at the piece of candy in my hand.

When I look back at the bowl, though, there are so many other cute shapes and they're all in different colors and I wonder if all the flavors are different and I just want them all. I glance back at the woman working on her computer, making sure she's not watching, before taking another piece of candy, a different shape and color this time. I continue to do this until I have four candies, each a different shape and color than the last, and I tell myself I need to stop.

I tuck them away in my pocket so no one will see, and I feel like some dirty thief and scrunch up my nose at myself. But the candies did say I could help myself, right..?

I try not to think about it or be bothered by it as I head back to my room.


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